Now that I’ve been through the eye opening experience of how we are
intentionally being poisoned, I’m moving on. I recently started working on my
soul self, my inner being. That which is sacred.
I started doing Qi Gong in January. I’m finding it to be a challenging way
to grow spiritually. It has brought me to question many of the things I have
been told throughout my life. Most of which I cast aside in 1999, when I began
researching a book I intended to write. What an eye opening experience. That’s
a topic for another day.
I began meditating when I started my Qi Gong practice. I didn’t just begin
to meditate. I spent some time researching what it meant to meditate. Why
should I meditate? What effect would it have? And in particular, what form of
meditation would be best for me.
I can’t tell you what would be best for you, I can only share what I have
learned.
There are many forms of meditation. You might enjoy a guided meditation. Or
maybe you prefer to meditate to the sounds of nature, sound bowls, or music.
You will have to research what’s out there to decide what works best for you. Always do your research.
You can check out an earlier post I wrote while I was exploring meditations.
I found mediation to be a way to get closer to the real me. It wasn’t easy
in the beginning, to focus and get to that place of quiet reflection. Some days
I’d sit in silence and never get there. My mind would start reeling, and I’d
get lost. The important thing is, I didn’t give up. I keep practicing. I think
I will always be a novice when it comes to meditating. Some days I am able to
sit peacefully, and listen. Other days, it’s a challenge. I am still new at it
so we’ll see how it goes.
For years I have been working to heal my body from “food trauma”.
You may be wondering what food trauma is. Well, its the condition our bodies realize when we eat junk food over the course of time. For years I ate poorly, never considering what it would do to my body. While I was young, the though never crossed my mind. When I had children my eating habits changed. I always tried to feed them good food, so I had to eat well too.
After my second marriage, I found that my eating habits changed again. Yes, I still cooked and made good meals. But there were times when the children would visit their dad and it would be fast food weekend. Stopping at the gas station and buying chips and coke. After a few years of that, the migraines got worse. Eventually I was diagnosed with Hashimotos.
We’ve been conditioned to trust those that sell us the food and products that we consume. We believe that these companies (including our corporate government) have our best interest at heart. I think if you take the time to do your research, you will find that there is nothing further from the truth.
It is now time to be responsible for ourselves. It’s time to research everything we are told. From what we eat, to what we put on our bodies, to what we place in the air we breathe. I have learned through research that everything we are sold commercially has some form of toxin in it.
Right down to asprin. If you look at the “other ingredients” listed on the label, you will find that they put antifreeze in asprin. Look it up if you don’t believe me. That’s one example.
I’m no different than any of you. I failed to do my research, until my health was affected. Now I want to share what I learn so each of you know what I know. Obviously, you should still do your research. Trust no one when it comes to what you are exposed to. Be responsible for yourself, and teach your family to do the same.
We have to look out for each other, now. For the powers that be don’t, will not, and never intended to keep us safe.
Well, I’ve made it through another year. Another year older. Hmmm…
I think I’ll look at it as another year wiser. It’s amazing what we can learn in a year.
I’m continuing to evolve spiritually. While the post today has nothing to do with Hashimotos, it does have to do with healing. I’m learning that when we dig deep into our self, our soul, our being, we begin to understand how it is that dis-ease finds a way to manifest in our bodies.
I’ve been reading the lost books of the Bible. I’m amazed at the early teachings that were omitted from the Bible. While I don’t intend this post to become a debate in religion, I must say that we have been cheated. Humanity has been kept from the greatest gift in learning. If you have the chance, I suggest you start reading them. Quite enlightening. Maybe that’s the reason the Church doesn’t want us to read them.
Reading these books has prompted me to ask more questions about myself. Where I came from, what my purpose here is. How does everything fit together? The universe, God, humanity, ancient history. There are so many things we don’t know. To be honest, I think some of what we do know, those things fed to us by those in control, can’t be true.
Back to spirituality. In questioning the early history of our planet, I’ve come to realize that the mystery school teachings have a valid place in our reality. Of course, there is a God. He is part of us. He exists in each one of us. If you think about what Jesus (Yeshua) taught, it makes sense that we are more than we have been led to believe. He told us to be like Him. He taught us that we could multiply loaves, turn water to wine, walk on water, among other things. Jesus said God is within us. I’m sure you’re wondering where I’m going with this.
Well, I’m not going to teach a lesson in religion. As a matter of fact, Yeshua, despised religion. I only wanted to make a point. And that point is, if we expand our minds, we can do anything. As we become more in tune with ourselves, and learn how to control what and how we think, the possibilities are endless. Part of me wonders if that’s why the Church tells us that yoga is evil. Yoga teaches you how to focus, to be in the present moment. It teaches you how to control what you think, and how to move your body so you can work through all the trauma you’ve experienced.
I’m not a yoga expert. But I understand what I read. And anything I’ve read about yoga and meditation tells us that it is when we control our minds, how and what we think, we will be free from the matrix that has kept us enslaved. If we take control of our minds, stop watching and listening to the media, that is brainwashing us to be puppets, we will be surprised at the freedom we will enjoy.
So, I started my Qi Gong practice. With it, comes meditation. While I do the simple meditation that is part of the practice, I include focused mediation in my daily routine. It took me a while to ecide which worked best for me butafter some trial and error I decided on the focused mediation. Below I listed some forms of meditation you can research. The list is growing.
But I’ll start with what appears to be the most popular options
• mindfulness meditation
• Visualization meditation
• focused meditation
• movement meditation
• mantra meditation
• spiritual meditation
I looked at mindful meditation and understand it originates with the Buddhists. It appears to be the most popular form of meditation practiced in the West. In this form of meditation, you focus your attention on your thoughts as they pass. Observe them without judgement. Observe any patterns while combining concentration with awareness. This practice is a good one to do alone, without a teacher.
Visualization is the practice of that focuses on physical feelings associated with the body and emotions where you focus on feeling relaxed, peaceful, and being calm. I
Focused Meditation utilizes the five senses. You can focus on the breath. Or you can focus on something external like counting mala beads, staring at the flame of a candle, moon gazing or listing to a gong. As a beginner you may find it difficult to focus for more than a couple minutes at a time.
Movement Meditation includes things like walking, gardening, Qi Gong, and Tia Chi. I use this in Qi Gong. While you move focus on the parts of your body as you move. It’s amazing what you feel.
Mantra Meditation is a forma of mediation you see in Hindu and Buddist traditions. With Mantra meditation you focus on a specific word or phrase as you breathe.
Spiritual Mediation could be a means to connecting with a higher power. A form of worship or prayer. It focuses on developing a deeper understanding of spiritual/religious meaning.
There are other forms of meditation. These however, are the most widely known or understood as meditation practice. You should research each form and determine which works best for you.
Another new year is upon us, and with it will come more challenges. I don’t use this platform to discuss the views of the world, because I think we get enough of that in other areas. My goal here is to focus on our inner work.
You got it. Starting in 2021, I will be sharing my continued spiritual journey.
There are those who might scoff at this idea, but I believe we are coming into a time where we will all need to raise our vibration. We were reminded in October, that we are all energy. We are born into our bodies, energy that has always existed, yet has changed forms many times throughout our third dimensional reality. I know some of you don’t subscribe to this idea. That’s okay. But please be respectful of those who wish to read this, in your comments.
So, expanding on the idea that energy can’t be created or destroyed, we realize that we must have always existed in some form. Whether it be in this space/time/dimension, or some another field.
Taking the idea of energy a bit further. We know our thoughts are also energy. Let’s consider for a moment that energy, vibration, and frequency are the keys to the universe. If that statement is true, then we are ruled by these keys. Knowing that we are energy, it stands to reason that when we think we are emitting energy called thoughts. Those thoughts or energy is released into the universe as soon s we think them.
If we think the same though over and over, then we will attract that energy.
So this year I’m going to focus on thinking about what I want my life to be. Not what is was in the past. No more looking in the rear view mirror. From now on, we look ahead, while focusing on and living in the present.
One of the ways we can do this is by focusing on us. I don’t mean that in a selfish way. I mean it in the sense that we need to listen to our bodies. We need to remember who we are, who were meant to be, who we’ve always been. We have been living in a state of amnesia. In more than one way.
It’s time to wake up. In focusing on our self, we will reveal our true nature by healing our trauma. Whether it be trauma from childhood, or past lives. Or even our family lineage. By healing our wounds, we will awaken our soul self and remember true love.
So, this month I began this journey by choosing a modality of exercise. You can choose whatever resonates with you. Running, yoga, take a spin class, walking, biking. There are many options. I’m going to begin with Qi Gong. I find it easy to connect to myself, to listen and understand. I focus on the energy as I move and breathe. By focusing on each movement I am living in the now and “feeling” present.
I will start with that, for now. We’ll see how I do.
We’re coming up on a new year. Many people watch as the years pass away, without considering any aspect of what lessons were presented in during that time.
With everything going on in the world right now, It makes me wonder. Why are we here?
Well, I’ve asked that question, many times throughout my life. Often times I’m stumped. I’m hard pressed to find the answer. We are born, we live, and we die. So, what happens to us during the long period of time while we are living?
The first thing that comes to mind, now, is slaving away for those who control everything. Outside of that, though, there must be time that we enjoy. If not we need to make a conscious effort to change that.
As I look forward to the new year, I will make more of an effort to “live” my life. I will focus more on the positive and less on the negative.
Many things have changed for me this year. My relationships, my health, and my ability to be happy, to name a few. All of these changes have presented me with challenges. But they have also allowed me the opportunity to grow, and to learn about myself, and also, who I want to be.
So, I hope you will join me as I move into the next year with joy and gratitude. In the mean time, I hope you all have a merry Christmas (or happy holidays however that looks for you).
Living with Hashimotos has it’s challenges. While I learned early on what I needed to eliminate from my diet, I’ve had moments where I missed something.
But time is an excellent healer. I sense healing throughout my body. My weight has remained consistent, even though I’ve introduced most natural foods back into my diet. The nodules on my thyroid are gone. I have energy and can still focus.
I try to only eat food I prepare. Unfortunately sometimes my schedule isn’t conducive to meal preparation. On occasion I have purchased a box of crackers or other snack that indicates it’s soy free. Only to find out that in fine print the product was processed in a plant that process soy.
My body knows. The reaction is temporary. But it’s inconvenient.
Life is getting better. I don’t have to be so strict with whole foods, as I did early on. I feel healing. Some people may believe that once your body is damaged, it can’t be fixed. I believe the opposite.
I’ve introduced into my life the idea that we are all energy. I’m learning more about our matrix and how we’ve been tricked to believe everything we’ve been told about health. Those who have control over medicine, media and education are doing their best to brainwash us to believe we must do as they say to be healthy. When in reality their goal is to make us sick and more dependent on their drugs. Putting humanity into a tailspin where we crash in poverty. Draining our resources and leaving us with nothing.
After researching and studying the mechanics of the human body, our cellular make up, and the polarity we experience, I’ve come to realize that through science, the statement is accurate. We are all energy. And energy can neither be created or destroyed. It can only be transformed. Nikola Tesla knew this.
So, if the energy that is our thyroid can manifest Hashimotos, it can certainly transform that negative energy that manifests as Hashimotos, to a healthy thyroid. I believe that is why I’ve been able to live without medication. I believe my thyroid is healthy. So it is.
I’m going to post more on how our energy, which is influenced by the environment and our thoughts can manifest in our bodies to either create dis-ease or to heal it.
I hope you will all remain open minded and share as I continue my journey to live healthy with Hashimotos.
In 2017 I met a wonderful group of ladies. We connected through a online group that promoted the lesson of miraculous living. At the time I had no idea where the lesson would lead.
Today, I realize the best miracle is the miracle of friendship. We met in 2017. It’s now 2020 and we continue to connect every Wednesday on Zoom. We make a point to discuss the positive things that have occurred during the week. We support each other in prayer, by offering up those intentions that we each need to see in our lives.
I’ve come to realize that we can spend a lifetime surrounded by people, yet we may never really make connections. And in a flash, there are those who are drawn to each other through space and time to connect on a level so deep, it is a though they share energy. These ladies are those who I feel a connection that helps me to be the best me, I can be. I hope I offer the same to each of them.
I mention this connection because I know how lonely life can be. I remember sitting in my house, watching movies or reading. All while being alone. Yes I’m married, but that relationship is not true. I don’t say that to talk bad about my spouse, but to share the idea that sometimes even those who are supposed to be our “best friend” end up being strangers we live with. Those are things we all need to work through. Things we all need to come to terms with and resolve.
Part of healing from trauma is recognizing when things in our life aren’t right. Yes, there are always signs, but often times we push away those signs because it’s too uncomfortable to address them.
I look back on my diagnosis of Hashimotos, and through fresh eyes see another side to why I manifested it. Yes, on a subconscious level, I manifested it. Let me explain.
I’ve always been someone who wants to help others. Often times to my detriment. I never say “no” to anyone. I never tell anyone how I feel, or what I need. Now I know it’s because my throat chakra has been blocked. This block manifested in the form of a thyroid condition. This condition would require medication for the rest of my life.
Thankfully I was smart enough, awake enough to know that the pharmaceudical industry didn’t have our best interest at heart. You know the rest of that story.
My situation, where I was alone and didn’t share what I needed, where I had no friends, caused my body to react. In my determination to heal myself, I found my peeps. They may not be local, but they are there for me, and I’m there for them. We meet over tea once a week and connect daily sometimes through a private facebook group. They have helped me grow and learn more about who I am, and helped me to realize my dreams. I’m grateful for each of them.
If you’re in a place where you feel lonely and have no one to confide in, remember, there is always hope. When you need it most, and you’re open and willing to receive, you will make those connections. Keep leaning in to the healing process.
One of the struggles for people with Hashimotos, is stress. When stress enters our life it affects the whole endocrine system. This is one of the reasons I take ashwaghanda and holy basil.
One of the things those of us with Hashimotos are told is, learn how to manage your stress. That being said sometimes life throws you a curve ball, and there is nothing you can do about the stress, except ride out the storm. I’m going through one such storm now.
In 2017 I found out my spouse was keeping a big secret from me. This in addition to a habit that left me uncomfortable among other things. I’m not going to go into details about what was done, because, even though I’m hurt and disappointed, and I’ve also been left traumatized, I’m not vengeful.
For the last 2 years I’ve struggled because I stayed with my spouse, hoping he would make amends, and make things right. He did not. Last fall I asked him to leave. It took until this month to get him to finally leave.
I share this information only to bring to light another form of trauma. One that affects many more people than we know. Yes, betrayal trauma. It is a thing.
For years I thought the symptoms that present with Hashimotos were only related to that. However, I have come to realize that the symptoms I had long before I was diagnosed with Hashimotos, were symptoms of betrayal trauma. While I’m not going to share here the story of betrayal, I’d like to share a little about betrayal trauma.
Betrayal trauma is the impact of being traumatized emotionally by a person close to you who has violated the trust of the victim. In my case it was my spouse.
Because the betrayal is so personal in nature, it can be more destabilizing that strictly fear based trauma (I don’t discount fear based trauma. It is terrible too). Betrayal trauma has also been associated with the following:
• Anxiety
• Hypervigilance
• Feeling overwhelmed
• Withdrawal & isolation
• Difficulty concentrating
• Difficulty regulating intense emotions
• Avoidance
• Flashbacks
• Negative thoughts
• Numbness & detachment
• Sleep & appetite disturbances
• Headaches (I had migraines all the time)
I can tell you the above list is pretty accurate. My experience included most of those on the list.
When he left, a wave of emotions passed over me. I cried tears of relief for the first day. I’m hoping I can heal from this trauma now that he’s gone. It may take a while, but I’m determined I won’t live the rest of my life like this.
If you think you have experienced a similar trauma, please know you’re not alone. I’m going to work through this, you can too.
It’s been almost four years since I was diagnosed with
Hashimoto’s thyroiditis. It was a realization that changed my life. Before I
was diagnosed, I ate everything and anything. I ate bread like it was going out
of style. Cheese was something I couldn’t do without and ring dings were a
mainstay. I never thought food would be the catalyst for the destruction of my
thyroid.
You may read these words and think it’s impossible. But
I assure you nothing could be further from the truth. We all know the phrase,
“You are what you eat.” That being the case there was nothing natural about my
being. Most of what I ate was processed in one form or another. My eating
habits were what drove me to the brink of what was near disaster.
I don’t think we often associate what we eat with how we feel. That is until we get physically sick. Unfortunately for me, it took years of eating “junk” before I felt the effects of such a lifestyle. Each year I got worse. I remember when I was twenty-nine years old, I went to the doctors with complaints of exhaustion and total body pain. My joints ached, I was unfocused and felt tired most of the time. The doctor diagnosed my condition as Fibromyalgia. That didn’t help the way I felt, it just gave me an excuse to feel the way I felt.
I moved through the next twenty years in a fog. My migraines got worse. I would dose them with sinus medication, Excedrin Migraine, and a bottle of coke. By the time this concoction made it through my system, I was nauseous, jittery, crabby and I didn’t sleep for two days. In the beginning, it made the pain of the migraine tolerable, but as time passed the headaches got worse and my makeshift meds, didn’t touch the pain. I couldn’t take traditional migraine medication, because I was hypersensitive and reacted to everything my doctor prescribed.
Not only did the pain of the fibro make it difficult to enjoy life, but the migraines made it nearly impossible. It took all I had to keep up with my two girls. Beyond that, I couldn’t focus or find enough energy to “have fun” or “enjoy life.”
I tell you this because most symptoms we experience can
be a misdiagnosis for another condition, illness or disease. In my blog BLOG
POST HERE, I list some of the symptoms of Hashimoto’s, some of which are
confusion, numbness, exhaustion and total body aches and pains. Then there is
weight gain and a feeling of desperation that steals away your joy.
My husband used to joke about my wearing socks and
sweats to bed in July. Yes, I was cold all the time. Then there was the contest
to see who could leave the most hair in the corners throughout the house, the
dog or me.
Listen to me when I say, if you experience these
symptoms, consider your thyroid as the source. Listen to your body. If you
think something isn’t right, chances are something is wrong. Remember, your
regular doctor can draw blood and send it off to the lab, but the results will
not be accurate. Your TSH results may come back normal and yet your T3/T4 and
antibodies could be out of control.
In the next few posts, I will be discussing more of what it means to live with Hashimoto’s and how it affects your life. I hope anyone who reads this series will share it with mothers, daughters, wives, husbands, and sons. Yes, that’s right, men are not immune from Hashimoto’s thyroiditis. Look at your children and consider the possibility that their behavior issues could be driven by their thyroid. We will discuss that possibility too.
I hope some of you will share your experience in the
comments. Your story could help another to seek out and get diagnosed so they
can start living again. In the next post I will talk about how, as Hashimoto’s
gets worse, we become disassociated from the life we used to love. I hope you
will read it.
I started doing Qi Gong in January. I’m finding it to be a challenging way
to grow spiritually. It has brought me to question many of the things I have
been told throughout my life. Most of which I cast aside in 1999, when I began
researching a book I intended to write. What an eye opening experience. That’s
a topic for another day.
I began meditating when I started my Qi Gong practice. I didn’t just begin
to meditate. I spent some time researching what it meant to meditate. Why
should I meditate? What effect would it have? And in particular, what form of
meditation would be best for me.
I can’t tell you what would be best for you, I can only share what I have
learned.
There are many forms of meditation. You might enjoy a guided meditation. Or
maybe you prefer to meditate to the sounds of nature, sound bowls, or music.
You will have to research what’s out there to decide what works best for you. Always do your research.
You can check out an earlier post I wrote while I was exploring meditations.
I found mediation to be a way to get closer to the real me. It wasn’t easy
in the beginning, to focus and get to that place of quiet reflection. Some days
I’d sit in silence and never get there. My mind would start reeling, and I’d
get lost. The important thing is, I didn’t give up. I keep practicing. I think
I will always be a novice when it comes to meditating. Some days I am able to
sit peacefully, and listen. Other days, it’s a challenge. I am still new at it
so we’ll see how it goes.
