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Feeling The Fear

November is in the rear view mirror. Now we look ahead to December where we continue our challenge… on our own. But not really. We still have our peeps in the Signal group.

So, at the end of November, Brice challenged us to create our own challenge for December. I summarized what my challenge would be on November 28. But I conveniently left out something important. She challenged us to do something we were afraid to do. I hadn’t made up my mind what that something would be.

Well, today I’m prepared to state my fear and work to create a way to get over it. Where to begin.

I guess I’ll start here. Today. Now. First let me set the stage for that which I fear.

I’m an author. I’ve written three novels and I have yet to promote them. With the exception of the promotion Brice did on her channel, I haven’t gotten up the guts to put myself out there. The books are for sale on Amazon and Barnes and Noble. Which is good but I haven’t done any marketing. I haven’t talked to anyone about my work.

I’ve always been an introvert. With the exception of having to speak for work (regarding topics I am knowledgeable about), I don’t like speaking in public. I prefer to stay invisible. I’ve done pretty well with that up to this point. But now that I have a reason to speak out, I’m nervous. Writing is one thing, speaking in public is another. Especially in front of a camera. Once you do it, it’s out there for the world to see… FOREVER. That’s a lot of pressure.

That’s why I write these posts. It’s easier to write a blog, than it is to get in front of a camera. My final confession… thinking and writing about it now brings tears to my eyes. How’s that for recognizing the pain?

Anyway. I don’t know what it will look like today, but this month will be the month I begin the process of putting myself in the public eye. I’ll keep you posted.

In the mean time, I am working my challenge. Yoga, meditation, and cold showers. I think it’s easier to continue what I started, than it is to interrupt the flow and begin in January.

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Day Thirty – A Tribute

This challenge has taught me many things. The main thing it has taught me is this. I’m strong. We are all strong. We all change when pressure is applied. The result of that pressure can be beautiful.

For the last 30 days we have been put through the vice of life. We’ve tested ourselves beyond what we ever thought possible. I want to congratulate everyone who made it through the 30 Day Shadow Work Challenge. It has been a pleasure to be in such good company. I look forward to working through the next challenge with each of you. Thank you for supporting me on my journey.

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Mission Accomplished – Days 29

Here we are, day 29.

Can you believe it. We’ve come so far this month. Those of us who participated in the Shadow Work Challenge have conquered many obstacles, over come fears, and worked through pain that has kept us in a place where shadows live.

We have traveled into the abyss and wrestled with demons. We may have done it kicking and screaming but we did it. We shattered the illusion of fear and doubt. We are like the seed, that, planted in the darkness forces it way through the earth to sprout and grow into the great oak who’s roots spread wide and deep.

We are growing. We are shifting toward the light. We are the light, a fractyl of God that shines brightly, reminding us, and others of the potential we have as human beings.

This journey has been a profound one. I have traveled from a place of unknowing, to a place where I continue to grow and learn about who I am. I become more confident each day. I’m stronger and more focused. I feel a connection to mother earth that has me grounded and feeling peace and joy.

I’m sure I’m not alone when I say we owe a great deal to Brice Watson, and her team (Emmie Simpson, Stephanie, Schapp, Catherine Edwards, Morne Venter, and Chantelle Meyburg). They have each contributed to our growth in ways I never would have imagined. Brice, the wisdom you’ve shared with us is beyond your years. You are a blessing to the community. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you do.

I can’t wait to see what the 60 Day Shadow Work Challenge brings.

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Day Twenty-Eight

I know I keep saying, “I have learned so much during this challenge”. I keep saying it, because it’s true. Everyday I learn something or have the opportunity to go back and revisit something I didn’t have the chance to do a deep dive into.

In today’s video, Brice gave people the opportunity to “be her guest” on Solutions by Aquarious Rising Africa. This gave some of the participants of the Challenge to share their experience with others.

No, I’m not one of the participants who shared. I’m still working a j.o.b. so I couldn’t take the time off on short notice, to share. I feel like I’ve been doing that here, all month. I hope you all found value in the sharing. Maybe it brought you to join the challenge.

As we get closer to the end of the month we are continuing to challenge ourselves. Now, as we get closer to day thirty, we find our biggest challenge yet, comes to the surface. It’s time to create our challenge for December. December’s challenge will be created by each individual participant. We are on our own for the month.

I will continue to exercise. My plan is to do an hour of Ashtanga Yoga at “dark thirty” (really early in the am), then 30 minutes of core exercises. I’m thinking I will add the Barre on Sundays, in addition to yoga. I will continue with the meditation after my practice. Yes, the cold shower stays. I will read one book a week, to expand my knowledge. I’m hoping to share what I learn on this platform. Going to bed before ten pm has served me well, so I will keep that too. I’m also doing the Yoga intensive with Brice so I’m reading the Yoga Sutras. I think that pretty much fills up my time for the month of December.

I’m another day closer to day thirty which I will end with my 28th journal entry. Then lights out. I end this day, thankful for all I’ve learned, and thankful for all the people I’ve met.

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Day Twenty-Seven

Sunday, Funday!

This is our final Sunday fun-day for this Challenge.

It’s hard to believe I’ve been working this Challenge for almost 30 days. I’ve learned many things about myself. We’ve addressed both emotion and friction while incorporating them into our workout. Actually, they are a result of the workout.

I was raised during a time when we were taught that we needed to control our emotions. We needed to keep them hidden. We were weak if we showed our emotion. And no one wanted to see you cry. “Suck it up buttercup”, “brush it off and keep going”, were words we heard when we heard when we got hurt.

I don’t blame my parents for this though. They were only parenting the way they were parented. Part of our shadow work is to heal these wounds and change the perception of how we grow and learn.

For many years of my life, until recently, in fact, I hid my emotions. I never cried in front of my children. Certain people said I had a cold heart, because I didn’t show emotion. While that hurt, I never let it show. But it did affect me. For a while, I believed it. Yet, somehow in my “cold heartedness”, I still took excellent care of my children, volunteered and gave to charities. I was always there to help anyone who asked. Now that I look at the big picture, I can tell you I do have a heart.

The emotions didn’t break lose until I started doing the work. I’ve been focusing on my shadow work for years now. But to be honest, those tears didn’t flow freely, until I started this challenge.

I believe the friction created by the workout options is what forced the emotion to the surface. The friction creates pain in the body. We are learning the the pain we experience isn’t just a physical reaction to the body working muscles that haven’t been worked in years. The pain is also an emotional response to the energy that has been stored in those muscles. The “work” forces and releases that energy which is what prompts the emotion, causing the tears to release that energy.

I don’t claim to be an expert when it comes to shadow work. I’m a “newbie”. I will tell you I’ve learned a lot. I’ve become more acquainted with my true self. I’ve learned to trust myself. And I’ve learned that with time and patience, I can heal.

I’ve also learned that those working the Shadow Work Challenge have been a great support to each other. It is a new experience for me. I’m thankful for all the gifts that this Challenge has afforded me.

If you’re looking to grow and heal from past trauma of any sort, you should consider joining the Challenge in January 2023.

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Day Twenty-Six The Yoga Sutras

We made it through to another self study Saturday.

Today we looked at the Yoga Sutras. Specifically the Yamas and the Niyamas. They teach us “right living”. They show us how to live morally. The first Yama, Ahisma, teaches non violence. It teaches us to heal ourselves first.

There is a big lesson in the first Yama, Ahisma. Most of us grew up knowing we shouldn’t harm others. I think we often forget we are part of that equation. Sometimes I think we beat up ourselves more than we would ever target anyone else. The negative talk we project on ourselves puts us in a space where we go from good, to bad, to worse. We talk ourselves into believing we aren’t enough. We should consider that as harming our “self”. During this Challenge, we are learning to heal those wounds.

The Niyamas, are constructive tools that teach us self confidence and how to be happy in the moment. Santasha, the second Niyama, means contentment or joy. Here we study, to learn that we can be content with any situation. We can we find peace in the turmoil.

No matter where we are in our life we can learn to find joy in the little things.

In the video above, Brice asks us to sit quietly outside. She asks us to observe the temperature. It’s cold where I live. Or is it? The mind tells us it’s cold outside because it is protecting our bodies, keeping us from freezing to death. But if we step back and observe the feeling without prejudice, we can
notice the sensation in our body without judgment. As I sit in the cold frosty air, observing my breath as the condensation escapes from my lips, I still say it’s cold. Without prejudice, of course.

This reminds me of our shadow work. We are working through pain during our workout. we are observing the pain, objectively. Asking our bodies to tell us where the pain is coming from. What lesson do we have to learn through the pain? It still hurts, but if we look at the pain objectively, we discern healing in working through it.

While this Shadow Work Challenge is almost at it’ end, the work will continue. It will be a life-long process that only ends with death or moving to a new reality (or dimension). The lessons are unending. So, as my day closes, I record these things in my journal, and turn out the lights.

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You Are More Then Your Opinions – Day 25

Brice will expand on the (title) statement in more detail in the video.

When I sat back and thought about it, I realized the truth in the statement.

Our minds are not our soul. Our minds are part of our bodies. Our bodies are the expression of the soul. Not the soul. The soul is real, the body isn’t.

That doesn’t sound so crazy, once you realize the concept of energy. The Hathor’s tell us they see our bodies as egg shaped balls of energy. Millions of tiny points of light. They see our energy bodies. They see our bodies from their dimensional reality, not from the third dimension where we reside. We as humans have descended into this dimension to experience the polarity of this reality. In this dimension our bodies vibrate at a frequency that is low enough that we appear solid. So back to the statement, “you are more than your opinion”.

When we listen to the vibration of the thoughts in the mind, we think we are solidifying a fact. When in reality, we are not. We are making an assumption, or creating a situation based on something that is probably manifested by our ego. That trickster, again. So, while the thought isn’t real, we must be careful what we think. Because our bodies don’t know the thought is a manifestation of the ego that will trick us into believing it real, thence causing it to become real in our life. The vibration of the thought, presents itself as a solid 3D manifestation.

In today’s video, Brice talks about the challenge many face when it comes to food. I can’t say I have an addiction to food, but there have been times in my life when I would use food to soothe a stressful situation. Or I would use it to replace or create a feeling of joy that I lacked in my life. The best example of this is chocolate. I really like dark chocolate. I always kept a chocolate bar in my cupboard or desk in case. When I felt down or was a target for someone to blame or make fun of, or when stress became to much, I would take out the chocolate. Now that I recognize this, I try not to use it as a vice. I try to turn the situation around. I own the feeling and work to let it go.

I don’t have a food addiction, but there are people close to me that do. It is painful to watch them struggle with weight, and with the mental anguish of fighting the food frustration that keeps them stuck. It’s hard to watch, knowing, I can’t help. I know they have to work through that pain on their own. I do try to be supportive, knowing I can never really understand their pain.

I hope anyone reading this, that suffers with food addiction, will be able to find the strength to work through the injured energy that causes the suffering. I hope you can find the courage to see your beauty and know that you are perfect. You are everything good in the world. When you are released from your dark night, you will shine. The world will know you for the being you are. And you will know joy and peace. Until then, know, anything is possible. You only need to believe and remember, your opinions are not you.

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Day Twenty-Four – Being Thankful

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope you all have a wonderful day.

It was a busy day for me today. I cooked breakfast for my family. We were a party of 18. I love to get together with my family. It is the only day of the year that we are all able to come together and share a meal.

I was up extra early this morning to be sure I got in my workout before the fun began. This was a new experience for me. Before the Shadow Work Challenge, I never got up early to workout. So, today I’m expanding my horizons, yet, again. I was up extra early, finished my workout, took a shower (yes cold), and took some time to meditate.

Thanksgiving, for me, used to be a wonderful holiday. But over the last few years things have changed. I love to get together with my family, don’t get me wrong. So much has changed in recent years. From the lock-downs to people getting the flu, to relationships changing. Nothing is the same. I’m thankful for breakfast where everyone was lighthearted and full of joy. But I need to work to bring the joy back to the dinner meal.

As I return the conversation back to the Challenge, I have to be honest. We had a great breakfast. And dinner was nice. I entertained two of my sister’s, my brother-in-law, one of my daughter’s and my mom. I am grateful to have been able to be in such good company. But I miss the days where I had twenty plus for dinner. What a crew we were.

So, tonight I sit with the emotion that I believe Brice was talking about in the video above.

In the early evening hours, after I cleaned up the kitchen, I sat quietly in my dimly lit living room. My thoughts returned to earlier in the day as I reflected on those who didn’t make it for dinner. My mind began to whirl, to go off on a tangent, creating reasons why they might not have wanted to enjoy the meal with us. Of course, I know the reasons I came up with aren’t real. My ego was playing tricks on me again. Thanks to our conversations through the challenge, I am now able to recognize the little tricks the ego plays.

I ended my evening, with my journal, and then sat down to continue reading The Hathor Material”. And surprisingly, I was able to turn out the lights at Ten.

Another day, and many lessons later, The Shadow Work Challenge is still part of my routine.

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Day Twenty-Three Looking Ahead

What a year this has been. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and soon November will be a memory. Time seems to be speeding up to move us through the final phase of this astrological cycle. I have to say, I will be glad to see the shift. Even though we’re supposed to embrace the work.

This shadow Work Challenge has been a tool to help us do just that.

Have you noticed that the last couple years have been chaotic? If you haven’t, I’m not sure what planet you’re living on. So many people find their lives in turmoil. The scamdemic began what has became a means to mess with the world population. The elite had a plan to take us down. Their plan isn’t working.

I know there are still many people who aren’t “awake”. But the plan they had to depopulate the world, is backfiring on them. While they were forcing people to stay in their homes, people were using that time to do more than listen to the “programming ” forced through the airwaves. Many people used the “lockdown” time to learn who they really are.

We’ve spent time researching many of the “conspiracies” that are now proving to be true. This Shadow Work Challenge has given us another tool to be able to turn inward and break the programming by helping us find our inner truth.

As the month winds down, so too will this challenge. While we will be set free in December, many if not all of us will continue to work the challenge to continue growing and knowing.

I know Brice has intentions to present a 60 Shadow Work Challenge in January. I can only imagine how many people will participate. I think there are over 500 people participating in the November challenge. Wouldn’t it be wild if we end up being 500,000 participants in January? What do you think of that Brice? No pressure.

I’ve learned a lot about myself throughout this challenge. Interestingly enough, I’ve realized age is no obstacle. I’m no spring chicken, but I’ve been able to jump in and follow the challenge without issue. I mention this because as you read this, I want you to know that it doesn’t matter how old you are, You are never too old to work through this challenge.

When we were kids, the adults in our life, on occasion, would ask us what we want to be when we grow up. Some of us are pushing 60 (yep, I’m almost there) and we still don’t know what we want to be when we grow up. This challenge has presented me with some options to consider.

You are never too old to learn about your true self. You could be one of those old souls that is waiting to remember. You may be waiting to be prompted toward your Dharma.

Working through this Shadow Work Challenge has given me the courage to awaken and ascend. I’ll keep moving in that direction.

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Letting Go – Day Twenty-One

I can’t believe we’re already at the day 21 mark. Yes, the work has been hard, but it has also been rewarding.

I’ve learned many things about myself. I have always been a hard worker. But I have also neglected myself. I put others needs before my own. Because of this I never exercised, and I’ve not been concerned with what I eat. I eat well. Meaning I don’t eat junk food. When I was diagnosed with Hashimotos I addressed that. Now I eat mostly raw foods because I can’t be bothered to take the time to cook. On occasion I take a couple hours on a Sunday to prepare a root vegetable soup (my take on minestrone without beef broth), but outside of that I don’t plan meals.

Learning about the Doshas has helped me focus a little more on meal planning. I have a clearer understanding of how food effects the body and the emotions. It’s amazing how, when we stop to look at the big picture, everything falls into place. Food is energy, we are energy. It makes sense that we want the food we put in our bodies to match the vibration of our body. After all is is the expression of the soul.

I want that expression to match my soul purpose. So in addition to what I put in my body, I’m becoming more conscientious of moving my body. Each of the exercises Brice introduced through this challenge have been a wonderful way to observe how my body reacts and responds to pain. They have given me the opportunity to use these modalities to get to know my true self. Not the self that wants to run and hide when the pain comes up. I’ve learned that self is the ego, trying to trick me, to get me to quit. My true self is the me that pushes through the pain and keeps going. It’s the self that is learning to be honest about the pain. To sit with tit and learn the lessons that are present so I can heal those old wounds.

I can’t believe we’ve been working this challenge for 21 days. The time is passing quickly. I’ve learned a lot, but I know I still have many things to learn. I guess I’ll see what the next eight days bring.

I know we’re almost there, but it’s still not to late to join the challenge. You’ll finish later, but you will learn so much. I hope you will consider joining us. It’s never too late to begin to heal.